i know, your right. and no doubt your going through a similar thing with your friends, and i know they wouldn't if they knew how much i cared for you, but i just guess i expected them to take that on face value, on my word. and thank you for being there for me, *sigh* this was my original message from last night:
"i write this not as a boyfriend, but as a friend, i am so, so unhappy with my whole life right now, and i dont know why, but i am, and i miss you, and i want you to be here with me, and not for sex, not for your body, but for someobody to hug and to hold, which nobody else has ever seemed to want to offer me aside from you.
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i love you so much, and i'm very happy to hear about the 1st, and i hope i'm not putting you out by asking to see you then, and hopefully that 5% doubt dissapears, but if it doesnt, you know i will keep here waiting for you, don't you?