I had a nightmare the other day, but this was one of those 'do not want' moments.
In that nightmare, a friend of mine committed suicide by jumping onto train tracks in front of a freight train.
Normally when something scary's about to happen, or im about to die, i realise that its just a dream, and it doesnt happen. I was expecting this, i remember thinking, in my dream, "this is just a dream, this cant be happening", but he jumped nevertheless, and the imagery was really graphic, its still vivid in my memory.
The train pushed him along for about a metre, then a leg went under the front wheel and got cut off, there was blood, he got pushed along another metre or so, then his torso went under the train and he got split in half, so much blood, i sorta looked for a few seconds, then i turned away in shock, and i saw others on the station looking in horror, then i thought "oh shit, this cant be happening", i turned back, and his body was still there in 3 parts with lots of blood everwhere, i took out my mobile fone to call an ambulance, and then i woke up.
I felt soo bad i msg'ed a friend to ask if they've talked to him lately, to ask him how he's been.
I talked to him on msn a few times that day, he's still alive, phew!
I had another dream once where another friend fell off a building, wasnt that high, but she fell square on her back, and i couldnt catch her, wasnt fast enough, so i carried her around looking for a hospital and couldnt find any, and i felt really sad when i woke up.
Those kinda dreams are not nice.
