The subjects I'm doing are Advanced English, 2U & 3U Maths, Chemistry, Biology, Music 1 and SOR 1.
At the beginning of Year 12 (up to Term 2 of Year 12 or normal Term 1), I was aiming for a 95-98 ATAR, which looked promising since my grade across all subjects was mainly in the high 90s. I was 1st for Music, tied 1st for Chemistry, 3rd for Biology; and top 5 for the rest at my (mediocre) school (approx 130 students).
However, as Term 3 commences, the more I pushed myself (unhealthily), the more my grades started to fluctuate with my highest being 100% and the lowest being 40% (first failure of the year ). I've had a history with anxiety and panic attacks, but it was never as bad as this year- 2020 has already been an unprecedented year with all the disruption, then came along the passing of a friend and other personal issues. But I'm still the root of my own problems because I can become quite critical in setting high expectations of myself and would be quite unforgiving when these are not met.
The more I became paranoid about my performance, which escalated due to HSC, the bigger toll it was on my physical and mental wellbeing, and ultimately, my marks and ranks have just been declining. This reaches its climax prior to trials where I possessed a quite negative outlook and burned out that I couldn't really retain any content or practised effectively. I've recently received my trial marks back and am pretty disappointed with most of them.
I've spent some time to estimate my marks and ranks for my subjects (including trial results), with weightings taken into consideration.
I want to do better and I know it is possible since I didn't find the trials difficult - I just wish I didn't let my anxiety engulf me because I know I would have done significantly better with a better mindset and practice as well. I hope to look after myself better from now on to at least do my best in HSC, but rankings used to be my safety guard, and now they're not as good so I'm scared that even if I get decent HSC marks, they would go to someone else instead, and my cohort is also quite underwhelming. I'm particularly concerned about Chemistry since I know that my class is not strong at all and is small in number.
I will do my best and am aiming to bring everything to the next band (ie. all 6 & 5's). But I still want a 93+ (preferably 95) ATAR, what are my possibilities looking like so far?
Thanks.
At the beginning of Year 12 (up to Term 2 of Year 12 or normal Term 1), I was aiming for a 95-98 ATAR, which looked promising since my grade across all subjects was mainly in the high 90s. I was 1st for Music, tied 1st for Chemistry, 3rd for Biology; and top 5 for the rest at my (mediocre) school (approx 130 students).
However, as Term 3 commences, the more I pushed myself (unhealthily), the more my grades started to fluctuate with my highest being 100% and the lowest being 40% (first failure of the year ). I've had a history with anxiety and panic attacks, but it was never as bad as this year- 2020 has already been an unprecedented year with all the disruption, then came along the passing of a friend and other personal issues. But I'm still the root of my own problems because I can become quite critical in setting high expectations of myself and would be quite unforgiving when these are not met.
The more I became paranoid about my performance, which escalated due to HSC, the bigger toll it was on my physical and mental wellbeing, and ultimately, my marks and ranks have just been declining. This reaches its climax prior to trials where I possessed a quite negative outlook and burned out that I couldn't really retain any content or practised effectively. I've recently received my trial marks back and am pretty disappointed with most of them.
I've spent some time to estimate my marks and ranks for my subjects (including trial results), with weightings taken into consideration.
- Adv English - B6 91 (top 1-3/48)
- 2U Math - B4 75 (6/24)
- 3U Math - E2 31 (10/15); prob won't count towards ATAR anymore
- Chem - B4 78 (3/10)
- Bio - B5 87 (2/50)
- Music - B6 96 (1/12)
- SOR - B6 45 (10-20/~60)
I want to do better and I know it is possible since I didn't find the trials difficult - I just wish I didn't let my anxiety engulf me because I know I would have done significantly better with a better mindset and practice as well. I hope to look after myself better from now on to at least do my best in HSC, but rankings used to be my safety guard, and now they're not as good so I'm scared that even if I get decent HSC marks, they would go to someone else instead, and my cohort is also quite underwhelming. I'm particularly concerned about Chemistry since I know that my class is not strong at all and is small in number.
I will do my best and am aiming to bring everything to the next band (ie. all 6 & 5's). But I still want a 93+ (preferably 95) ATAR, what are my possibilities looking like so far?
Thanks.
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