rant: end of y11 and i feel like a failure (2 Viewers)

[iloveeggs]

dont know how to explain it but im like slowly giving up on my dreams to get the atar i want and do undergrad med. im just not where i need to be academically and ik i can lock in for y12 and stuff but just based off my performance in y11 alone, which was supposed to be like a trial run for hsc, im doing good but not like great. ik y11 doesnt mean anything but im really just so mediocre and im so tired of saying im going to make an academic comeback. there are like thousands of kids out getting better grades than me, studying more and what not and i just dont think im good enough anymore lowkey. i think me being in a selective school makes it much worse bc everyone is working really hard and theyre consistently motivated but im just barely coping. i invested a shit ton of time into studying this year and quit a lot of extracurriculars i used to do so i could cope with the demands of my y11 work but my grades are meh and im super miserable too.

i just hate the way y11 has turned out and im stressed af and since ill graduate in like a year i dont have hope that i can turn things around anymore. i hate school so much ugh

sorry i dont mean to trauma dump on here bc its kind of embarrassing but im hoping someone in y12 or older has had an experience like this and turned out to be wrong about what they can achieve

 

[moonsuyoung]

dont know how to explain it but im like slowly giving up on my dreams to get the atar i want and do undergrad med. im just not where i need to be academically and ik i can lock in for y12 and stuff but just based off my performance in y11 alone, which was supposed to be like a trial run for hsc, im doing good but not like great. ik y11 doesnt mean anything but im really just so mediocre and im so tired of saying im going to make an academic comeback. there are like thousands of kids out getting better grades than me, studying more and what not and i just dont think im good enough anymore lowkey. i think me being in a selective school makes it much worse bc everyone is working really hard and theyre consistently motivated but im just barely coping. i invested a shit ton of time into studying this year and quit a lot of extracurriculars i used to do so i could cope with the demands of my y11 work but my grades are meh and im super miserable too.

i just hate the way y11 has turned out and im stressed af and since ill graduate in like a year i dont have hope that i can turn things around anymore. i hate school so much ugh

sorry i dont mean to trauma dump on here bc its kind of embarrassing but im hoping someone in y12 or older has had an experience like this and turned out to be wrong about what they can achieve

Same here :,)! BUT, remember year 11 is just a trial run and we still have time to improve for Year 12! Try to reflect on what you did well and what you didn't do that great - reach out to your teachers and graduates for advice as well.

 

[ris08]

can we still clutch year 12 term one if we flopped prelims

 

[Average Boreduser]

dont know how to explain it but im like slowly giving up on my dreams to get the atar i want and do undergrad med. im just not where i need to be academically and ik i can lock in for y12 and stuff but just based off my performance in y11 alone, which was supposed to be like a trial run for hsc, im doing good but not like great. ik y11 doesnt mean anything but im really just so mediocre and im so tired of saying im going to make an academic comeback. there are like thousands of kids out getting better grades than me, studying more and what not and i just dont think im good enough anymore lowkey. i think me being in a selective school makes it much worse bc everyone is working really hard and theyre consistently motivated but im just barely coping. i invested a shit ton of time into studying this year and quit a lot of extracurriculars i used to do so i could cope with the demands of my y11 work but my grades are meh and im super miserable too.

i just hate the way y11 has turned out and im stressed af and since ill graduate in like a year i dont have hope that i can turn things around anymore. i hate school so much ugh

sorry i dont mean to trauma dump on here bc its kind of embarrassing but im hoping someone in y12 or older has had an experience like this and turned out to be wrong about what they can achieve

'imo ur fixating on ur peers more than yourself lmao. Just forget them and what they r doing and pray/work for better days'
-AverageBored User 2024 17th of September Psalm- 16:36-28 (BOS Bible)

 

[iloveeggs]

can we still clutch year 12 term one if we flopped prelims

yes you can, im just not optimistic bc i can't cope with the pressure as opposed to the actual content. lots of ppl do worse in y11 and then learn based off their mistakes and do better in y12

 

[Average Boreduser]

also ur kinda overworked in yr 11 w 12 units. its reasonable to do badly lol esp w 0 studys.

 

[iloveeggs]

'imo ur fixating on ur peers more than yourself lmao. Just forget them and what they r doing and pray/work for better days'
-AverageBored User 2024 17th of September Psalm- 16:36-28 (BOS Bible)

thanks this is inspirational

 

[iloveeggs]

also ur kinda overworked in yr 11 w 12 units. its reasonable to do badly lol esp w 0 studys.

yeah i really played myself with my subjects too, i got told by ppl i was suicidal for picking that specific combo bc the workload is extreme

i do have 1 study but its once a fortnight and but my school ends later than a lot of schools so it does even out

 

[Average Boreduser]

yeah i really played myself with my subjects too, i got told by ppl i was suicidal for picking that specific combo bc the workload is extreme

i do have 1 study but its once a fortnight and but my school ends later than a lot of schools so it does even out

i had 0 whilst doing 2u music and sor lol (my school doesnt do early/afternoon classes)

 

[iloveeggs]

i had 0 whilst doing 2u music and sor lol (my school doesnt do early/afternoon classes)

early and afternoon classes like out of school hours classes? my school doesnt have out of school hours if thats what youre referring to, unless its ext 2 eng or maths or ext history or whatever which is for y12

yikes your subjects are also funky

 

[spiderfan44]

dont know how to explain it but im like slowly giving up on my dreams to get the atar i want and do undergrad med. im just not where i need to be academically and ik i can lock in for y12 and stuff but just based off my performance in y11 alone, which was supposed to be like a trial run for hsc, im doing good but not like great. ik y11 doesnt mean anything but im really just so mediocre and im so tired of saying im going to make an academic comeback. there are like thousands of kids out getting better grades than me, studying more and what not and i just dont think im good enough anymore lowkey. i think me being in a selective school makes it much worse bc everyone is working really hard and theyre consistently motivated but im just barely coping. i invested a shit ton of time into studying this year and quit a lot of extracurriculars i used to do so i could cope with the demands of my y11 work but my grades are meh and im super miserable too.

i just hate the way y11 has turned out and im stressed af and since ill graduate in like a year i dont have hope that i can turn things around anymore. i hate school so much ugh

sorry i dont mean to trauma dump on here bc its kind of embarrassing but im hoping someone in y12 or older has had an experience like this and turned out to be wrong about what they can achieve

make sure you take an actual break during the upcoming school holidays, like do not do school shit at all. also make sure you take a good break during the 6 week summer break. ill be real, med has an insane atar requirement, so even if youre doing really well academically youre going to feel pretty defeated. if its any help, almost everyone i know has improved from y11 and does better in yr12.

 

[spiderfan44]

can we still clutch year 12 term one if we flopped prelims

100%. for prelims i got 60% in english, term 1 yr 12 i got 85% on my exam.

 

[iloveeggs]

even if youre doing really well academically youre going to feel pretty defeated

thanks, this means a lot. for me ik for a fact im doing great but i just don't feel good enough and it will probably continue feeling that way for a bit but i have to keep it pushing

 

[kkk579]

yeah i really played myself with my subjects too, i got told by ppl i was suicidal for picking that specific combo bc the workload is extreme

i do have 1 study but its once a fortnight and but my school ends later than a lot of schools so it does even out

i do almost the same subjects as you (eco instead of eng ext 1, everything else is the same) and just flopped eco and modern since im dropping so ig its also due to the number of units u have to balance in y11. its pretty hard to balance all your time across the subjects you did especially since you picked all the difficult ones too so dw too much youll do better in y12 with more time on your hands whilst focusing solely on the subjects that matter.

 

[kkk579]

thanks, this means a lot. for me ik for a fact im doing great but i just don't feel good enough and it will probably continue feeling that way for a bit but i have to keep it pushing

where abouts are your grades for your subjects now? you might just be overly critical of yourself - best way to tell where you lie at is through your exam marks and ranks at tutor (im assuming you go to a tutor with all the other ss students) and see how well youre doing as compared to other schools

 

[Average Boreduser]

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So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young and we're reckless (oh)
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
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Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over (over), mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young and we're reckless (yeah)
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name

 

[kkk579]

Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there and I thought
Oh my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake
Love's a game, wanna play? Ayy
New money, suit and tie
I can read you like a magazine
Ain't it funny, rumors fly
And I know you heard about me
So hey, let's be friends
I'm dyin' to see how this one ends
Grab your passport and my hand
I can make the bad guys good for a weekend
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name
Cherry lips, crystal skies
I could show you incredible things
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
You're the king, baby, I'm your queen
Find out what you want
Be that girl for a month
Wait, the worst is yet to come, oh no
Screaming, crying, perfect storms
I can make all the tables turn
Rose garden filled with thorns
Keep you second guessin' like
"Oh my God, who is she?"
I get drunk on jealousy
But you'll come back each time you leave
'Cause darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young and we're reckless (oh)
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane (insane)
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over (over), mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
'Cause we're young and we're reckless (yeah)
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, mm
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space, baby
And I'll write your name

sup hows prelims going u got any marks back yet

 

[Average Boreduser]

sup hows prelims going u got any marks back yet

hoping to god I dont fail 2 subjects (SOR, music), uhhhh studied like 30 mins be4 my chme/phys only rlly studied for english icl. didnt get marks bac tho so we'll see. chem phys were pre free tho

 

[Average Boreduser]

ovr very skibidi rizz.

 

[iloveeggs]

where abouts are your grades for your subjects now? you might just be overly critical of yourself - best way to tell where you lie at is through your exam marks and ranks at tutor (im assuming you go to a tutor with all the other ss students) and see how well youre doing as compared to other schools

i cant say abt my grades atm bc we are still going through prelim block and prelims are worth a lot but i can guess ranks based on how im going
hsc adv math (ngl i dont care abt this bc ill probably make 4u) - 50/160
chem (haven't done prelims yet, that could either drop me or push me up higher) - not sure, i was average in term 1 out of 72 ppl and then term 2 i was 1st)
phys (got cooked in this one bc of a technical issue while writing an exam, the mark is going to be so shit) - 30/48
e1 maths - 20/96 (maybe even better)
e1 eng - 20/48
adv eng - 40/144 (im fine except for prelims, depends on the marking of that paper and how many other ppl failed)
modern - 15/24

i have no clue what i rank in tuitions ngl but i def do worse bc i dont put serious effort into tuition, i just use their resources and stuff

these are all estimates. school gets a decent amount of band 6s in all the courses i do except physics but im pretty sure my marks in that one took a hit due to circumstances i couldnt control and its only up from here.

so yeah im doing okay in everything just not very good. i think im really critical of myself bc the school i go to is ranked in the low 40s or high 30s and we dont have many alumni that make undergrad med, at least in sydney and i feel like i have to overcompensate by being top in everything

also my grade is not the smartest, no offense to anyone but the class of 22 and 23 were just superior and we will tank the schools ranking for sure, and i deliberately picked out subjects that had selection criteria you had to meet (everything except modern were subjects i had to get into on the basis of marks) so my cohort would be stronger. ik i sound like a jackass but i think its necessary