After I do something for Trebla, I will be leaving once again for another ‘evolution’ as @jimmysmith560 has put it.
For those who want some context, refer to this forum page below once again (for there has been a 1 year update): (Partly) The answer to all.
Value.
I want to find what it is that I value so much, that I forget that I even exist. Meaning that all I am are simply the experiences that come my way on my path towards my ultimate goal, which is also linked to that unwavering, absolute value.
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I have a final lesson to share, and it’s the ‘secret’ to ever lasting motivation, as I’ve found out myself finally, since I’ve been successful at long last in everything I do daily since a week ago:
cross everything off your to do list FIRST, so all that remains are the things that are on your bucket list to cross off.
I’ll just say it now, I’ve been depressed for the past 4 years.
Not from sadness, but from numbness.
I’m being so open about it, even with friends reading this, since it is FINALLY no longer a concern.
As for whether or not I’ll tell my family, well, I don’t care about bringing up past events anymore than I need to.
I’ll just act more energetic, and they should get the idea.
HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!!! I’M ALIVE! I’M ACTUALLY ALIVE!!!
I’m going to cry, I’M ACTUALLY GOING TO CRY!!!
I’M ‘ME’!! MEEEEEE!!!!!!
It took SOOOOO long, BUT I’M BEI MY HONEST AND PURE AND AUTHENTIC AND YOUNG AGAIN!!
I’M ACTUALLY CRYING WHAT THE HELLLLL
AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!
I LOVE YOU ME!! I’LL NEVER LOOSE MYSELF AGAIN, I PROMISE!!!
4 long years…
Philosophy and Psychology are dumb to me now.
Everything I learn, results in its self destruction.
It took me 3 months of studying Buddhism to question why it’s so hard to do something so simple as a kid while as an adult/teenager. And the answer is simple, OVERTHINKING.
ok, this is the last I’ll talk about any of my ideas like THIS, since I genuinely don’t like it.