This is just an unnecessary, depressing rant.
All my life I was considered to be an over-achiever, in fact at one point my parents were convinced I was going to study law because I was apparently so capable. I did well throughout high school, with even my teachers thinking that I'll get a really good final mark and estimating my atar in the 90's. I received academic awards, and genuinely prided on the fact that I was ~intelligent~ and I always saw UNSW as my next stage in life but right now I definitely know it's not going to happen.
I don't know why but this year everything just went to shits. This is the worst year I have ever performed in my life. It's been a constant brick in the fact on how I'm reminded that I'm not as good as I thought I was, and the fact the only exam I feel pretty confident that I did better than my trials was English. I feel like I can't get into any universities near me, not only that my parents are my entire family are going to be significantly and extremely disappointed/angry with me if I didn't get into UNSW. I honestly tried so hard and studied so much for Biology and Maths but yesterday and the day before robbed me and made me feel so pathetic. The only hope is that I can get a high band 5 in both Ext. Eng or Business, but I really doubt that since my internal marks were averaging mid-band 4's and my subjects scale so poorly. I feel so dumb, and so stupid right now and like it's really hard not to cry every minute at the thought of waking up and seeing my atar is 50. It just feels like all those past papers and study I spent for my subjects were not even recognised at all.
I know that ATAR isn't everything and that I can transfer what not, but it's just that it feels all my 13 years of being praised for being ~smart~ was completely shattered.
Firstly, with that bolded point - the perspective that ATAR isn't everything
at this current moment is to people who don't care as much and/or are okay with alternative pathways to get around to things. So in my opinion, its okay to actually see the ATAR as your current everything - otherwise, everyone putting their strongest efforts into the ATAR seen as insignificant would be a seemingly stupid concept.
Never ever doubt what you can do to fix your ATAR because the externals is a great playing field for you to show off your exemplar examination taking skills and that your internals is not an accurate representation of your potential.
I'm unsure as to what exams you have left - but this is what I can for Business Studies - pinpoint your weak topics (2 max) and do them as short answers + (unsure how many days you have left) but write as many essays you can (or at least essay plans so you will not get thrown off on the day!!!).
Additionally, I am 100% willing for you to add me on Facebook and to have 1-1 interaction to assist you with Business Studies so you have at least someone to ask for help with actively.
Jac babe, this is the best advice I can give right now:
Never go into an exam with a mindset that you can't do it - thats just admitting that you're ready to lose.
Have a good cry as well to let out that stress o 3o///
