Hi guys I am pretty new to these forums I am more of an observer but I was hoping somebody could shed some insight into my crap situation. So here begins my rant. I'm feeling really depressed about my ex, of, wait for it, 3 years. Basically what happened was we met, he told me all this shit about him liking me and asking me out and life was fantastic. Except every weekend he wanted to go out and hook up with other girls. And he continued to lead me on and lie to me about it and tell me how much he liked me, I liked him so much I just ignored it alll. Then one night I bumped into him when I was drunk (and he was with a chick) and started hurling abuse at him, which would have been great, except the abuse I was dishing out was more like "your a fucking dickhead, i hate you, etc", nothing that was coherent or intelligent or made sense, so he now thinks I'm insane. After that, he never contacted me again, and I only bump into him at my gym (where he works) or around at clubs or wherever. Everytime he bumped into me, he would try and start a conversation with me and I would be rude to him and brush him off. Eventually, he stopped talking to me at all, and began going out with a really beautiful and perfect girl, who he was with for 2 years. During this 2 years, as far as I know, she seems to have "changed" him or whatever *cue violins*. I wouldnt say I was pining for this guy for this whole time, I guess seeing them around together has made life a touch awkward at times. But now, all of a sudden, they have broken up, and she is moving away, and he is single again, and I wish he would notice me.
Slight problem: I am pretty sure he hates me and thinks I am insane, and has probably laughed about it all with his mates. It's really making me feel like shit. I have this idea in my head if I lose a lot of weight and begin to look like a supermodel (like his ex), he might become interested in me. Not that I am overweight, I am just not perfect. I have no idea how to undo what damage I have done (by making him think Im a nutcase). we don't even speak, its crazy for me to even think of him. I was thinking of doing one of his boxing classes, but then thats awkward. I dont know. I also injured myself at the gym last night from overdoing it cos I am so intent on losing weight now.
I suppose what is also maybe worth a mention is the fact that I am under a fair amount of stress at the moment, which I guess could be the reason I'm feeling so down. Basically all the components of my life are pretty shithouse right now, and I'm just holding out til next year when i can go overseas and away. I tend to get myself worked up to a point where I have trouble breathing. So there is my current life story.
Advice, please?
Slight problem: I am pretty sure he hates me and thinks I am insane, and has probably laughed about it all with his mates. It's really making me feel like shit. I have this idea in my head if I lose a lot of weight and begin to look like a supermodel (like his ex), he might become interested in me. Not that I am overweight, I am just not perfect. I have no idea how to undo what damage I have done (by making him think Im a nutcase). we don't even speak, its crazy for me to even think of him. I was thinking of doing one of his boxing classes, but then thats awkward. I dont know. I also injured myself at the gym last night from overdoing it cos I am so intent on losing weight now.
I suppose what is also maybe worth a mention is the fact that I am under a fair amount of stress at the moment, which I guess could be the reason I'm feeling so down. Basically all the components of my life are pretty shithouse right now, and I'm just holding out til next year when i can go overseas and away. I tend to get myself worked up to a point where I have trouble breathing. So there is my current life story.
Advice, please?
