I look left and right throughout this whole forum as well as at my school and i can't help but feel inadequate and insufficient with the courses i am currently doing. I was one of the few who didnt choose any of the traditional "well scaling" subjects such as an extension subject and Adv. Eng, and as a result i feel so excluded.
I seem to be one of the few members in my grade to have been recommended English Standard. Standard English is really invigorating and interesting. We're currently analysing the Truman Show and relating it to the concept of reality television. I could never wrap my head around Shakespeare, so i am glad im not studying Macbeth as Adv. students are. Though as i see my classmates making their way to their next class with Macbeth or reciting scenes, i cant help but just feel shallow as all i have to show from my class experience is a few goofy scenes of Jim Carrey to give me a chuckle. We recently completed a common essay exam on the theme of belonging and i am ranked 2 in my cohort and i did achieve a mark higher than most of the Adv. students which i was really happy about!
Furthermore, I was recommended to choose Extension Math, but i was too fearful of the workload and the quick pace of the class. As I knew the classmates i would be with in that class, studied the whole 3-unit/2-unit course at their respective tutors last year, leaving no leeway for slow learners like me to grasp a foothold. I am really enjoying 2 unit Mathematics! And i'm within the top 10 of my grade to show for it! Though the presence of the playground inner circle of Extension students seems to make me feel to regretful of my prior decision. To make matters worse i have recently took up post-graduation tertiary study interest in Engineering. This further solidifies my guilt and regret for not selecting Physics and 3 unit.
Though i'm going to continue to try my hardest this year and the next, the feeling of what could have been looms over my head everyday.
I seem to be one of the few members in my grade to have been recommended English Standard. Standard English is really invigorating and interesting. We're currently analysing the Truman Show and relating it to the concept of reality television. I could never wrap my head around Shakespeare, so i am glad im not studying Macbeth as Adv. students are. Though as i see my classmates making their way to their next class with Macbeth or reciting scenes, i cant help but just feel shallow as all i have to show from my class experience is a few goofy scenes of Jim Carrey to give me a chuckle. We recently completed a common essay exam on the theme of belonging and i am ranked 2 in my cohort and i did achieve a mark higher than most of the Adv. students which i was really happy about!
Furthermore, I was recommended to choose Extension Math, but i was too fearful of the workload and the quick pace of the class. As I knew the classmates i would be with in that class, studied the whole 3-unit/2-unit course at their respective tutors last year, leaving no leeway for slow learners like me to grasp a foothold. I am really enjoying 2 unit Mathematics! And i'm within the top 10 of my grade to show for it! Though the presence of the playground inner circle of Extension students seems to make me feel to regretful of my prior decision. To make matters worse i have recently took up post-graduation tertiary study interest in Engineering. This further solidifies my guilt and regret for not selecting Physics and 3 unit.
Though i'm going to continue to try my hardest this year and the next, the feeling of what could have been looms over my head everyday.
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