sorry if i'm breaking the thread of the conversation a little here, but for anyone else who is stressing out, and who doesn't have a specific goal (as in, they are applying for university next year, and that is all they want to do), just don't.
i think that almost all of the important, interesting people in the world would do horribly at the HSC, because listening to every banal word that your teachers say and spending your days studying instead of experiencing life has never, ever been a positive character trait.
i don't mean to insult anyone who is working toward a goal - if that is what you want, i salute you. but in all honesty, i am sceptical of anyone who says they know what they want at this age and stage of their life.
if you examine your vague career aspirations, please, take money out of the equation at least. nobody was every happy from having money. i just got back from a holiday to thailand (in the middle of my HSC year! woohoo!) and those dirt-poor kids are happier than any i have ever seen in australia.
and even if you have a fairly good idea of what you want, or you want to keep you options open, remember two things. number one: going straight into uni before you experience at least some part of the world outside of school is NEVER a good thing. number two: this is supposed to be the best part of your life.
the teachers and parents tell you that you have to study and work, so you can be successful in later life. what-the-fuck-ever! from now on, whoever tells you that study got them where they were, take a step back and see if they are even happy where they are. i know half my teachers aren't, and the few who are happy are telling me 'stay the fuck out of university for a while'.
i mean, there is so, so, so much more to life than material success. i find it so ironic we can be studying poets like Coleridge, and being told to memorise, learn that, study this, prepare that, but all the time we are ignoring the biggest joke: we are inside doing this when Coleridge is screaming at us how pointless it is! he is telling us to imagine, to think, to live, not to memorise...
it really is horrible the way the education system is set up. i say, almost anyone who is actually pursuing something real in life would be fairly relaxed about this exams. i mean, they are so arbitrary: they dont measure someone's worth, just their willingness to sacrifice their time for something that is very close to useless. screwed if i want to win THAT category.
phew! rantage. well, i have english paper two trial tomorrow, so i guess i should... study, or something?
interested to hear your views...