It's my first year, second semester at USYD. I'm studying science/nursing but might transfer to just science. My major is computer science.
First semester I pushed myself to work hard. I had a full week; I went to uni 5 days a week, was there most days from 9 - 5 (meaning I'd have to get up at 6:30am and be home by 6:30pm) so by the end of those days I was often very tired but I still pushed myself to do a lot of work at home.
Well, it didn't pay off, and I was very disappointed as I barely scraped 3 credits and a distinction. I guess it's not "bad" but given the amount of effort I put in, it made me feel very discouraged. And I am the type of person who "studies smart" as well, there wasn't a problem there.
Anyway, come semester 2, I have a bit more time. I go 4 days a week, usually get home by 4 or 5pm. However I feel I have lost all motivation. I was initially the type of student who would NEVER skip a lecture, I couldn't imagine letting myself do that. But recently I have been skipping one of my 2 hour lectures. The lecturer has horrible English speaking skills and a very strong accent, I can't understand a word she says. I found the lectures to be pointless, and I became sick of being there for 2 hours spending my energy trying to understand what the heck she was saying. So I started skipping that lecture, and not even trying to catch up. The lecture slides are brief and honestly I need the aid of the lecturer's words but can't understand them! So I guess I'm just hoping I get the info I need from tutorials and readings. Honestly I don't even care anymore, which is weird for me, because I used to be the type of student who might panic in this situation and become very nervous about failing.
I barely study anymore, I mean I still do work most days but it's the bare minimum. Like if I have an online quiz, I'll do that. If I have an assignment, I'll rush through it to get it done. But I don't study as much as I used to nor as much as I should. I'm just studying enough to pass I guess (and that's become my new motto; "Ps get degrees" lol I never thought I'd sink this low).
Basically I come home and am not bothered for anything. I go to uni and I'm not bothered for anything. I cant concentrate in lectures most of the time, my mind is always somewhere else. I don't know if it's laziness or something else.
I don't want it to effect my marks but I can't get myself to have any motivation. I don't think it has hurt my marks yet, but I fear it might. I just have an urge to hurry up and finish uni. I'm sick of it and everyone. I haven't been able to make friends. There is one person in my tutorial that I did make friends with but I don't know if he really cares about me or being friends. He's nice and everything but I feel like he doesn't want a proper long term friendship. it's going to be like all those other people you just meet in tutes and they don't really care about you or care to talk with you and pretend they don't see you when you're not in a tute with them (this happened to me many times). I hate uni and I don't know what I even want to study anymore and everything sucks :'(