worst guy i've been out with is definitely my 1st bf....most people who know me know how much i hate him.
it was ok until a bit over 2 mths after we started going out, when i kissed another guy - yeah, its probably my fault that we didnt work out, but i found out the real him from it (and no, i wasnt drunk or anything..but the guy was). my ex got really cut (at the guy, not at me) and wanted to bash him.
he threatened to commit suicide because of it, or more correctly just said "you know how close i am to the train tracks" (he backs on to them). he knew, all too well (it was the wk before we started going out) that a girl in my year died caus she got hit by a train (semi-suicide, i'm not too sure..she was 1 of my really close mate's neighbour & really good friend). that got me heaps upset, and also caus it made me think of my grandma (died in 2001, started going out with this guy end of 03).
the r'ship just went downhill from there. he became heaps clingy, and got really really jealous when i had guys at my bday party (he stormed off after 1 of them lifted me up). after a couple more months, he just started getting on my nerves really easily and for the last probably 2 or 3 months (were together for 8 months), everytime we chatted on the phone and probably 2 outta every 3 times we saw eachother we'd fight (or at least have one or two little arguements)..and he knew that i got/get defensive comparatively easily. and in the mean time, he'd gotten heaps into alcohol and got stone a fair bit, which he knew i wasnt happy about at all.
it was also really frustrating caus i was in yr 12 and he was in yr 10, so he didnt understand how much work i had to do and how much time i needed to study and work on my school work and PIP, which resulted in me stuffing up my trials, and therefore adding to me getting a crap uai.
in the last month or two he got in contact some chick through a mutual friend, and kept going on about how much she was msging/calling/talking to him, which just got on my nerves - he may as well've been cheating on me, it was close e-bloody-nough! and to top it all off, he goes and has phone sex with her!! it's the 2nd or 3rd lowest thing to do to the girl you apparently 'love' so much, and his only thing to say about that was it didnt mean anything caus he was watching the wrestling at the same time! it was so easy to break up with him after that.
i dont know why i stayed with him for so long, i probably should've broken up with him earlier...or when i initially had my chance (after i kissed the other guy). sometimes i really wish i'd never gone out with him...but hey, i dont give a fuck about him anymore, nowdays he's just a good story to tell people if i get bored, or a good way to let out some anger. all i need now is to beat the 8mths & i'll be really happy - its really annoying/frustrating/just sad having the guy i absoultely hate as my longest bf...meh
