hey, most people here know me or know me through here. they would then know that i had an abortion a little over a year ago.
i fell pregnant at the end of october '04 - during my HSC. I went to every exam vomitting and feeling like shit, I did ok in my exams but I could have done better if i wasnt so sick. i was pregnant with my boyfriends baby (we have now been together for 2 years). from the start he was supposrtive, he would support my decision, and i told him i couldnt do it, i wanted an abortion, and he told me he wanted the same. id thought about it, and there was no way i could keep it, id never had a job, my boyfriend was doing 1st year apprenticship wages, we couldnt afford it and the child would have such a hard start to life if we couldnt even afford nappies for it. i want kids so bad. i love babies and cant wait to start a family but itsnt right to raise a kid where they have no chances in life.
i fell pregnant by accident, we were using protection, we were just the 0.01% that is unlucky. really unlucky since i had a falloppian tube removed wheni was younger and the doctors told me it would be hard for me to conceive.
i dont regret it, the way things were back then, i wasnt pregnant with a child, i was just pregnant. it sounds harsh, but thats how i felt.
if you havent been pregnant, you wouldnt know what runs through your head. before i was pregnant i would never have dreamed of having an abortion, im pro-choice but i didnt think i could ever do it. but when i was in the situation everything changes, im not saying you all have no idea what im talking about, im just saying that you dont know what its like so you cant make a proper decision about it. BUt you should have your opinions, it can help in the long run, it helped me realise that i have no idea about anything until i have been there and experienced it. i cant say id hate sky diving, because i havnt done it. it has helped me keep an open mind and has showed me quickly how mature i was about it. mat and i had been together only 6 months and im not sure how our relationship would even have handled it. but we handled what happened well, we love each other and planning on marriage and what happened to us is just another thing that has made our relationship so strong.